BEST BELOVED
I can’t remember when it was I stopped really looking at you, but here beside me in bed, I am shocked to see that you have turned into someone old. Lying facing me, your head on the pillow, I can see how the loose flesh has distorted your face into a melted waxwork facsimile of someone I used to know. Your mouth, half open and relaxed, your exhalation deep and rhythmic, I can smell the night’s sleep on your breath. Your eyes closed in sleep allow me to examine your lashes which even now, are longer than they should be on a man. Your eyebrows are barely visible as like your hair, they have turned snow white. I never knew you when you were young, but you often talk of how red your hair was and how proud you felt for it being so. The only concession to your heritage now being the golden tinge to the hairs on your arms, and your temper when crossed. You tell me you had freckles as a child, and although your skin suggests a vulnerability to the sun, all I see are the l